Missing You

Looking up there knowing you're looking at me I'm wondering what the world may be. Maybe somewhere down the road I know it will be better for me. Trying to keep my head up but every time I wish you were here with me. I miss the way you laugh I miss the way you look. I know someday I will be right by your side laughing like we used to do. Together in my heart forever we will be my Grandpa and I together we'll be.

Silence

Silence is all I hear.
Silence is what I fear.
Silence is what I speak.
Yet silence is what makes me weak.
My silence fears others.
When I don't mean to be feared.
Once you get me open.
There is nothing to be feared of.
I come off being shy.
Yet no one believes that and asks why.
Silence keeps me away.
Yet silence doesn't make me who I am today.
Silence is silence.
Let it be or get out of its way.

I'm Done

I'm not the one that is going to be there.

I'm not the one who is going to care.

I've given up showing my emotions to you.

I've given up trying to make people happy.

I've given my all to people but have got nothing back from them.

Why should I keep trying to make people better.

Why should I even care about anything.

I'm done trying.

I'm done crying.

I'm done with everything.

Haunted

Looking out into the dark night
I see your face looking back at me
I get up to get close to you
But then you disappeared.

Whistling I hear in the dark hallway
I call out your name
THERE I SEE A SHADOW
I swear it was you

Creaking doors, eyes watching your very move from paintings
Are you here or am I imagining things?
I open the door and quickly swung it open
You run away from me

I see blood on the floor
Did you do this?
I see a hand print on the wall
Where are you?

I'm in this house by myself... So I thought
But I feel you everywhere I go.
What do you want? I ask
And with a whisper you tell me...
"Death is on your way."

Anger

Looking at the door
I'm waiting for you
I hear footsteps
My anger is getting worse
I look at the table next to me
There is a loaded hand gun
The lights are off and I just wait...
The door slowly opens
The drunken man walks in
Smelling like stripper perfume
He turns on the lights
He see's me, then he see's the gun
I grab it and asked for answers
He thinks its a joke
He thinks I won't do it
But wait...
I'm scared....
I'm weak....
He starts to get close
I got scared and then...
BANG. BANG. BANG.
The gun is shot he drops to the floor
A tear runs down my face
I get on my knees
Dropped the gun
Grabbed the phone
I called the cops
I reported myself for two deaths
One of my husbands
And one of myself
I grabbed the gun
I put it to my head......BANG!!!!!!!
The gun was fired again
Cops came storming in
Sees me as the gun falls
And then me
They tried to save me
But it was to late
I have gone past the light.
Good bye everyone
I wish you well.

Love

I see him staring
Staring at me.
I feel his warmth
His body next to mine.
My heart starts racing when I look at him
I feel like I'm going to faint
But then I start to breath.
I think of him day and night
Thinking everything is going to be alright.

I listen to him sing
He sings to me.
My heart starts to race
It races when he gets close to me.
He makes me laugh,
He makes me smile
How lucky am I to be with him
He is my one and only
and I'm his only one.

I watch him watching me
We don't speak a word
But then we laugh.
It's like he knows what I'm thinking
And I know what he is thinking.
It's like having a moment
That we will never forget.

Gone

Stick three knives through my heart
As it flies away
Watch the blood drip down
As I start to fade away.

As I start to fade away
I look up into the sky
It feels so different each day
For now I'm going away.

So long to the world
For now I am...
Going....going....gone.

I Have Changed

Sitting in this world alone
Not caring for anything
I used to look up to you
But now I'm a changed person.

Looking at you is like looking in the past
Seeing you stare at me
Saying your never going to last
Why did you give a fuck about me?

Why did you say you loved me?
When you really didn't care?
Who the hell do you think you are?
Some player in the street?

Who do you think you're looking at?
A ghost?
Someone you used to love?
Or did you fake that love?

Why did you tell me lies?
Why did you just watch?
When I fought for you?
Who the hell do you think you are?

Fuck you
You did this to me
Now I'm happy you're gone
Ha, you're never going to change.

The Light In Your Way

I am the light in your way
I wonder if OI'm there
I hear the words you say
I want to be away
I am a light in your way

I pretend to fly
I feel like disappearing
I touch the sky
I worry that I'll go back
I cry when I go away
I am the light in your way

I understand how people feel
I say I love you
I dream about home
I hope to get out
I am a light in your way.

My Life Has Not Yet Unfurled

Stuck in this world
I need a change
My life has not yet unfurled.

My life has not yet unfurled
I need to feel strange
I need my life to be swirled.

I need my life to be swirled
I feel use to this range
I want to be against the wall my body curled.

I want to be against the wall my body curled
What would make me strange?
What would make my life so twirled?

What would make my life so twirled?
Where will I seek? Where is this range?
Will he cause my life to become uncurled?

Will he cause my life to become uncurled?
You caused my life to change.
Stuck in this world
My life has not yet unfurled.

Alone

Who am I?
Why am I here?
Why can't I disappear?

I'm not alone,
a crowd surrounding me,
Do we all think the same?

Why doesn't anybody understand me?

There you are
Across the room
And a world between me and you

I'm alone,
no one's here with me.
Who thinks the same? ...no one...

Is therre anybody who will ever understand me?

Without a word...
...a welcome smile
Your eyes say to me...

You're not alone,
I am here with you,
we might feel the same.

I think I'm beginning to understand you... ...maybe...
Is there anybody who will ever understand me? ...probably not...
Why doesn't anybody understand me?

I know who I am,
I know where I've been Now I don't want to disappear.

I Will Be

When you are alone
But feel not alone
You'll soon see
How I will be
Through the trees
And across the streets
There is a house
Where I will be
I will soon be with you
I will soon be well-known
I will be able to fly
I will be where you are
I will be
If you feel alone
If you have no one to go to
If you need a hand
I will be there with you
You don't have to be alone
Just call for me
I will be there
You don't have to worry no more
I will soon be with you
I will someday be well-known
I will be able to fly
I will be where you are
No matter how far you are
I will be there
Trust me I will be
You feel alone
You feel left out
You feel like you're about to give up
Don't do it just listen to me
I will be there for when you need me
I will be

Which Way

I don't understand why I have to be in this world
No one seems to understand what i have been through
Everywhere I go I just see people walk by
But when I walk by them I'm a ghost to them
They just bump into me not even caring of how I feel
You would actually think you know someone
And then you think they will remember something
Like they do with other things
But then you realize you're wrong
They will forget
And someday they will forget you
Then your left with a choice
Which way will you go?

Tell Me Why

Tell me why should I care 
I'm not really there
No one will ever understand me
You say you will always be there for me
I've finally realized that it was all a lie
You left me out in the cold
So tell me why should I care
I'm not really there
No one will ever understand me
I'm out on my own
I'm glad that you're gone
You were never really there to help me
I've finally found myself
Now that you are gone
You were always wrong about me
So tell me why should I care
I'm not really there
No one will ever understand me